Wow, I sort of realized how screwed up I’ve been being toward some people on some forums I frequent.
Mainly my girlfriend’s troubles have been fueling my attitude lately.
For one, her brother is being a complete asshole, while at the same time promising her the world and then failing to deliver. When my girlfriend got a job, she was told that she’d be able to see me whenever she wanted on her own time. Pretty good, right? And my girlfriend works 10:30 PM to 6 AM, so she wakes me up in the morning. Perfect!
…Not so. Unfortunately, when she got the job, her brother totally failed to deliver the goods. When she asked to see me, she got it–for an hour. And later on, she got yelled at for seeing me too much, and talking to me too much. Time for a commonly used acronym known as WTF.
Getting even deeper, her brother attacks me for not having a license nor a job. I for one am not getting a job right now because I don’t have a license (which should be handled around the 19th of sept.), and I am going to college. He says I can’t give my girlfriend a ride because I have no license. The funny thing is, he doesn’t either. So he cruises in the same territory as I do on the issue.
But what REALLY irks me, is the fact that they then tell me, to my face, that my girlfriend will NOT be freed until I get a job of my own. Uh, WTF does my work status have to do with her freedom under their roof?
It seems like they are trying to use her against me. They know I care for her a lot, and know that she’s also my weak point. Doing something to her will cause me to react. And honestly, I have no idea what I’m supposed to do. Getting a job, while netting me money, will totally screw up my college plans.
This is almost as if she had lived with her mom. While she was under her mom, she constantly held her hostage, saying stupid crap like “She’s yours if you marry her, otherwise she’s mine and she isn’t going anywhere.”
In this case, she’s being held hostage once again, this time by her brother. The price? Throw away all my plans and go to work.
…wow.
Honestly, I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m stressed to the point where I’m saying stupid shit, and I didn’t even know that I said it. It’s like, taking over me right now, and I have no idea how to cool off. Usually my anger toward one person goes away after a few days at the most, but this one is lingering…I’ve slept on it and it’s not going away at all.